What is it now, Jami?

I feel as if I have been neglecting this blog for a very very long time. I remembered that I even made a promise to myself to update this daily. Obviously, I broke that promise.

Why did I even stop writing?

Honestly? I have no idea.

Wait. That’s not it. If I were to take a guess, I’d say it was because I lack the inspiration to write. I haven’t written anything for a long time save for anything academically related. There’s a part in me that says the lack of motivation is no excuse. That I’ve been too lazy to try and write anything. A little of both is true. I never write because I’m so fucking scared that someone will make me realize that what I write is pure and utter shit.

Pathetic right?

It is. I’ve been so caught up in what others would think that I’ve come to realize I’m not doing what I love to do.

I love writing. I really do.

Transforming myself from someone who’s basically a doormat to someone who can say “fuck you!” straight to your face without losing eye contact would not happen over night. So I’m posting this as a daily reminder.

I’m supposed to do what I have to do. Stop thinking what anyone will say against it if it’s not healthy.